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Social Interaction

As you can see, the blog has been less than spectacular.   I have not fallen off the face of the earth, I just have been connecting with people again.  I miss my interwebs people, but sometimes you need the face to face contact.  Whether the contact be “IRL” or just through a video chat, I need more than words to sustain my happiness.  So, this is not an apology but a warning.  I know the rules, but I say screw them.  I need more than a blog where I throw a pitty party for myself and it feels like I am only writing to an audience of me (half the time).  I need the friend that tells me to shut up and get over it, who will let me cry on their shoulder, who will make fun of my unintentional innuendos and will play awesome games (IRL or via Skype).  I need connections without time delay or misinterpretations. 

This won’t be the end of my blogs, but it is the one saying that I epic failed this challenge and that I am happy that I did.  The one that see a differently than the girl of 7 months ago. 

I am also happier with who I am.  I am annoying, I am hyper, I am grumpy, I am hypocritical and want to know what else, I am human! 

Now that the self empowerment is over, I gots news.  :P  I am now a student manager at work.  More responsibility, more work, more money, just more.  I think the challenge is what I have been missing.  I had been getting bored and totally the money wrong just so I could figure out the difference in change.  Yeah, that bored.  

Words: Who cares?

Fails: Too many

Rambles about Movies

It is sleepy time, even though it is only 8 pm.  I don’t know why I am sooooooo tired, but all eloquence is gone.  Right now it is basically stream of thought writing. 

I saw Thor today.  It wasn’t what I expected, but I really liked it.  It was action packed with comedy and romance.  Pretty much the perfect combination in a movie.  Plus, there is a really hot guy who is shirtless in it.

Speaking of hot guys, I want to see green lantern when it comes out.  That looks like it will be amazing.  I am kinda iffy on the new xmen movie coming out, but I will see it anyways because it is xmen.

Words: 117

Fails: 4

Getting Healthier

I have been working on my get fit goal pretty seriously.  When I first got my scale I was about 219-220 lbs, now I am about 211-212 lbs. Most of this dramatic fall started when I got my Wii. I got a Wii on April 25^th and my parents brought their Wii fit on the 30^th.  I have been trying to work out for at least a half an hour a day.  I have had some fails, but I am still motivated.  I want to get to 180 lb because then I will be classified as overweight instead of obese if the information my doctor gave me a few years back is still accurate.  My ultimate goal is to drop even more than that, but I am keeping it simple for now. 

Word Count: 132

Fails: 4

Weight: 212

Dear Diary...

I have managed to double my fail count.  *Insert lame excuse here.*  So I will have to post 3 times in the next 26 hours.  Ok, I can do this.

Today was awesome!  I got to see my friend who went into the hospital on April 18^th for a “routine” surgery for gallstones.  After her first surgery, they did not get all the gallstones out, so they had to do a second surgery and there were some complications for various reasons and she ended up staying in the hospital for two weeks in ICU.  This past week she was finally moved to a rehab facility and she is taking visitors.  It was so relaxing to see her there, see her laughing and smiling.  I have really missed her.  

Fails: 4

Word Cout: 128

"Finding a Nice Guy"

Can someone just b*tch slap me?  I am totally falling head-over-hills for a guy who just thinks of me as a friend.  Why can’t I just find a nice guy who doesn’t see me as just a friend?    I guess it is my fault since I am his co-worker (yeah, I am an idiot) and I don’t want to start anything with a co-worker so I gave off friend vibes.  I even tried setting him up with one of my friends because I didn’t really know him yet and I figured he was looking for a nice girl.  Little did I know that her attention was a fair weather friend.  Now, as I got to know him, I am falling deeper.  It makes me feel so insane!  I know that he is back with his ex and he is really into her, but damn it, why can’t I be that girl!

I think the reason why I am starting to feel so depressed and obsessed about this because I can’t get him out of my head.  I keep thinking of our interactions yesterday.  We were at a party yesterday and we talked about random things and he said things about how I don’t lead him on like my fair weather friend.  I get so confused by guys in general, but this guy confuses me the most because I have a personal stake – my heart – in the matter.

Word count: 237

Fails: 2

Fail and Sad News

I have another fail.  I only count one week as a fail.  Last week I gave myself the week off because my grandfather died.  I was not in any state to write about anything, let alone talk about my feelings.  Whenever I am hurt I tend to pull in my sad emotions and over compensate with happy.  I didn’t want to ooze this falseness on this blog.  I spent last week either trying not to cry or remembering good times.  I am not fully healed, but I am ready to start moving on to more lighthearted topics.  The next blog is about one of the last things my grandfather told me to do at Christmas as my grandmother chided him:  find a boy.

Word Count: 123

Fails: 2